One of my least favorite questions is, "Where do you see yourself in five years?" That question is always so difficult for me both professionally and personally. It makes me feel like there's something wrong with me when I have such trouble with that question or other similar ones like, "what are your long term goals?" Professionally I feel like it depends on where I am personally and personally I feel there is so much that is out of my hands. This is where faith would come in handy, which I have, but I haven't been able to completely hand it over to faith.
I'm pretty sure that if I documented every year where I see myself in five years, either the answers would be different year after year, or you'd see the same answers year after year as where I would want to be in life personally right now isn't happening thus far and there's no guarantee that it will. One reason why I struggle with this question so much is that life doesn't go as planned. There are concrete things you can do to reach a certain goal like go back to school, but the goals I care about most are more personal and there is no clear route from point A to B and usually some sort of curve ball is thrown in the mix to throw you even further off track.
Some things going on with me right now are having me think about these personal long term goals and how quite possibly they may never be met. So what am I supposed to do? Turn bitter? Start resenting those who have those things in life I desire like love and a family? No, I don't want to be miserable and that won't get me anywhere, so now more than ever I'm trying to make the most of it. I've given as much over to faith as I personally am able and the rest I'm just going to work with what I've got. The path I thought I was supposed to take, the one I'm pretty sure I want to take, just may not be the one I'm intended to follow.
2 comments:
Yeah, I've always hated the 5-year question, too. It is a dumb question that makes no sense. You can't predict your life and why worry about the future when there is enough to worry about today. I prefer to live day-by-day than to try to live in the future, which is impossible for anyone because you can never predict all those things that are outside of your control. People really should stop asking that question.
this is the kind of question and thinking that lead to the title of our blog. too much focus on what's next, preparing for the future. not enough on enjoying the here and now and making the most of it. life may be a journey, but at any given moment you're already at your destination, if that makes any sense. come to think of it, maybe I should explain that on the blog sometime.... okay - will add that to the 'to-do' list.
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